43th - Woke up at 10.30am.. was late for appointment as I'm meeting Min at bugis 11am! I slept at 4am the previous night thus I'm really tired!
I dropped by my office before meeting Min. Then went to bugis junction.. We bought lots of cheese bread! We are so crazy about cheese. We then went to Sim Lim as we wanted to do some namecards for our business. I bought a cable for my printer as previously I have thrown it away.. It cost me $22 for the stupid cable. The printers were closed as it was a Public Holiday therefore we left for lunch at Sim Lim's foodcourt before going back home for some serious work.
We started doing work since 1pm (I supposed.. as we left Sim Lim @12.30pm). I taught Min on how to use the inventory system for my website. She is getting on really quick.
She left my home @ about 7 plus.. I showed her to the ATM then she took cab home. I bought dinner home.. While eating dinner, I wanted to on my laptop. The adapter don't seems to work as there was lights on it. I kept plug & unplug the adapter again & again. Peh told me not to do that as he says I might get electric shocked.. but I didn't listen to him.. haha..
A loud boom & some sparkles was seen.. all the plugs that are linked to this wall socket went blacked out. (Tat includes my TV & my desktop!!)
44th - I think I was at home?
45th - Don't remember what is going on...
46th - Don't remember what is going on...
47th - Don't remember what is going on...
Monday, October 15, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
41th & 42nd day..
41th day - Busy with work the whole day.. Was pissed off with some colleagues for disturbing & asking me stupid questions when I'm busy. Quite moody at the noon time. Left office to Orchard as I'm meeting KS kor there. Bought a Gucci bag that cost $1450 as I really love the bag. It's the latest arrival for the Winter season 2007. Below there's a picture of how it looks like. The handle of my bag is slight different but same design. Anyway I pay cash for this bag from my own pocket ok! haha... :P
Bad things happened when mummy came home, she told me that she helped me to send a parcel that I placed on the floor as she thought that I have forgotten to post it. I blasted at her althought I don't meant it as the parcel was for a Malay customer who claimed that she had made payment to my bank account but I did not receive any funds. I even replied her email to ask which bank account she sent but she did not reply me. Sorry to say that but I'm a racist.. I hate Malays! And I hate liars more! I wouldn't be so angry if she tells me that she have no $ to pay as I can cancel her order. But damn her.. she lied to me & wanted to cheat the way out of me. I'll be real mad when someone lied to me!! Damn liars! Bear this in mind, if you want to be friend with me, don't lie! I will not forgive & forget liars!
Hubby called me when my anger was at the peak. I told him what happened. He kept telling me to cool down.. He also understand that I'm not angry with my mummy. I'm only angry becaused of liars & malay cheater. While I'm talking to hubby, he suddenly take away the phone & talk with a gal with a nice sweet tone. It's that bitch. RIBENA! Damn it! She is someone who's mother is a typical AH LIAN that scolded vulgars onboard on the day of their deployment. She is someone that touches my hubby infront of me & talks to my hubby sweetly treating me transparent! Fucking bitch.. Don't let me see you again. I will give you hell out of me!
I yelled at hubby as I blamed him for talking to her in a sweet tone! She is disturbing us & yet, she gets nothing from hubby. Hubby should yell at her as he knows that I damn fucking hate her. She is fat & ugly.. a potato to me.. i think she is only aged between 17 to 19. I'm so mad!
42th - Not as busy as passed few days. Went lunch with Yinling & told her about me feeling guilty of buy lots of things. She comfort me by saying this "out of 10 gals our there, 9 guys buy branded. And they usually buy as & when they like". She says that I seldom shop for things so its still alright. I told Yinling that few months back I just bought a coach bag.. omg.. I think I bought in on August? Only 2 months... opps... But the coach bag is those open concept, which means that it doesnt comes with a zip or button to secure the bag. It gaves me no sense of security thus I bought this Gucci bag.
Umm.. Same theory applys to all.. If something out there gives me no sense of security, I will abandon it & will find a better one to replace it or simply live my life without it so that I won't get the insecurity feeling. That's life... That's me... :)
Bad things happened when mummy came home, she told me that she helped me to send a parcel that I placed on the floor as she thought that I have forgotten to post it. I blasted at her althought I don't meant it as the parcel was for a Malay customer who claimed that she had made payment to my bank account but I did not receive any funds. I even replied her email to ask which bank account she sent but she did not reply me. Sorry to say that but I'm a racist.. I hate Malays! And I hate liars more! I wouldn't be so angry if she tells me that she have no $ to pay as I can cancel her order. But damn her.. she lied to me & wanted to cheat the way out of me. I'll be real mad when someone lied to me!! Damn liars! Bear this in mind, if you want to be friend with me, don't lie! I will not forgive & forget liars!
Hubby called me when my anger was at the peak. I told him what happened. He kept telling me to cool down.. He also understand that I'm not angry with my mummy. I'm only angry becaused of liars & malay cheater. While I'm talking to hubby, he suddenly take away the phone & talk with a gal with a nice sweet tone. It's that bitch. RIBENA! Damn it! She is someone who's mother is a typical AH LIAN that scolded vulgars onboard on the day of their deployment. She is someone that touches my hubby infront of me & talks to my hubby sweetly treating me transparent! Fucking bitch.. Don't let me see you again. I will give you hell out of me!
I yelled at hubby as I blamed him for talking to her in a sweet tone! She is disturbing us & yet, she gets nothing from hubby. Hubby should yell at her as he knows that I damn fucking hate her. She is fat & ugly.. a potato to me.. i think she is only aged between 17 to 19. I'm so mad!
42th - Not as busy as passed few days. Went lunch with Yinling & told her about me feeling guilty of buy lots of things. She comfort me by saying this "out of 10 gals our there, 9 guys buy branded. And they usually buy as & when they like". She says that I seldom shop for things so its still alright. I told Yinling that few months back I just bought a coach bag.. omg.. I think I bought in on August? Only 2 months... opps... But the coach bag is those open concept, which means that it doesnt comes with a zip or button to secure the bag. It gaves me no sense of security thus I bought this Gucci bag.
Umm.. Same theory applys to all.. If something out there gives me no sense of security, I will abandon it & will find a better one to replace it or simply live my life without it so that I won't get the insecurity feeling. That's life... That's me... :)
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
38th to 40th day...
38th - Unlucky monday I would say. Broke a small glass bottle of lightening serum that cost $110 in my bed room. While cleaning up the oily floor, a cute xiao qiang ran pass me & went under my bed. When the glass bottle felt, I was totally stunned. Staring at it for about 2mins.. Maybe I'm too tired.
Left home at 8.35am to bus stop. Saw that bald headed pervert waiting for me at the bus stop. This time I'm very brave. I was on the phone with Min & pointed at him while talking to Min about this pervert guy. I stand behind him so I can see what is he doing. He kept turning back to look at me. Of course, I showed him that I'm not scare of him. He kept looking at me. When I looked fiercely at him, he turns his head away... I think he is scare of me.. keke.. In order not to board the same bus & let him follow me again, I took a cab instead. Damn man... made me pay $ for cab fares. Chatted with hubby while I'm in the cab. Then noticed that I do not have much cash in my wallet. The Transcab taxi driver of SHB7571S overheard my conversation with my hubby. I told him that I don't have enough cash & asked him if I could alight at the nearest ATM but he refused. He actually told me that he will take the $14... He even off the meter when it is above $14... So touched! He drove me to my course venue then I alighted.
This 2 days Law course is conducted @SNEF.. Wasn't feeling well thus I left at lunch time & went for facial & massage @Orchard. After that I went to AMK Post office to collect my driving license as previously no one opened the door for the post man (It's a registered article).
When I was home, I continued to watch my why why love drama when I'm home. Cry until eyes swollen.. lol.. it's so touching! Slept at 1.30am at my parents room as I'm still scare of that xiao qiang.
39th - 2nd & last day of this boring course. After the course, I met Norna @Wisma. Bought a Gucci Sunglass that cost $484. I need a sunglass for reducing the glare from the Sun when I'm driving...Went to Crystal Jade for dinner before going home. Mummy & Daddy still overseas.. I'm so ke lian... all by myself..
40th - Went back to office late.. Was busy the whole day. Don't really remembered what I did.. Only remembered I went to AMK Hub to collect my Citibank Credit Card.
Left home at 8.35am to bus stop. Saw that bald headed pervert waiting for me at the bus stop. This time I'm very brave. I was on the phone with Min & pointed at him while talking to Min about this pervert guy. I stand behind him so I can see what is he doing. He kept turning back to look at me. Of course, I showed him that I'm not scare of him. He kept looking at me. When I looked fiercely at him, he turns his head away... I think he is scare of me.. keke.. In order not to board the same bus & let him follow me again, I took a cab instead. Damn man... made me pay $ for cab fares. Chatted with hubby while I'm in the cab. Then noticed that I do not have much cash in my wallet. The Transcab taxi driver of SHB7571S overheard my conversation with my hubby. I told him that I don't have enough cash & asked him if I could alight at the nearest ATM but he refused. He actually told me that he will take the $14... He even off the meter when it is above $14... So touched! He drove me to my course venue then I alighted.
This 2 days Law course is conducted @SNEF.. Wasn't feeling well thus I left at lunch time & went for facial & massage @Orchard. After that I went to AMK Post office to collect my driving license as previously no one opened the door for the post man (It's a registered article).
When I was home, I continued to watch my why why love drama when I'm home. Cry until eyes swollen.. lol.. it's so touching! Slept at 1.30am at my parents room as I'm still scare of that xiao qiang.
39th - 2nd & last day of this boring course. After the course, I met Norna @Wisma. Bought a Gucci Sunglass that cost $484. I need a sunglass for reducing the glare from the Sun when I'm driving...Went to Crystal Jade for dinner before going home. Mummy & Daddy still overseas.. I'm so ke lian... all by myself..
40th - Went back to office late.. Was busy the whole day. Don't really remembered what I did.. Only remembered I went to AMK Hub to collect my Citibank Credit Card.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
37th day...
Isn' a nice day as I slept at 5am last night. Was waiting for his call or msn till that time. Woke up at 12pm as I don't want to miss his call or msn again. FLO called me to inform me that they are at Dubai since 3rd Oct. I was told that they went for shore leave since they 靠岸 on 3rd Oct. I dislike the feeling of others telling what is going on instead of hubby himself.
These few days he hasn't been call or going online much. And hubby did not tell me that others went for shore leave or they have already reached Dubai. I really hate this feeling. It's like someone you love lied to you again. This might be the reason why he didnt call or go online. I didn't want to doubt him... but things really show what is going on. I told him before that if he wants to go for shore leave, at least make known to me. He agreed verbally... I didn't dare to trust 100% on what he said as I'm leaving spaces for the lies to come in. So that I won't be heartbroken...
Is it necessary to lie if he goes for shore leave? The answer is NO. But hubby is always afraid that I'll leave him when he does something that I dislikes or he breaks the promise. Isn't that even worst to break a promise? If you can't do it, don't make any promises. I don't mind you going for shore leave but please at least make known to me. I don't want anything to happen to you & be the last to know it. Wedding is around the corner. If you cannot preserve like what I did, I have nothing to say.
Been waiting for his call or msn since I woke up... Till now, he didn't seems to appear. It's 5.45pm which means that it's 12.45pm over his side. He should be out for fun now.. forgetting someone is waiting beside the comp & phone always. I still remembered him saying will try to accompany me more these days as my parents went overseas. Maybe I am dreaming..
7.45pm he logged in... I asked him to call me instead cos I need to talk to him via the phone. He is clever enough to check my blog before calling me. My purpose of supporting him for this trip is to let him have a brighter future. He told me before he went off.. he said his aim is to earn & save $ for our wedding. This deployment will actually lead us into 2 ways. One is happily ever after, another is find each other unsuitable thus choose not to be together. He denied everything which made me come to a conclusion to leave a distance as for now...
My heart shattered... My tears kept rolling down my face. I didn't had any food for the whole day as I am waiting for him. I hate ppl lying to me... I'll never forget... All because of the waiting, I killed my dog... My baby... accompanied me thru out all the good & bad. The dog that is always there for me... I felt bad.. So up sad.. At least baby accompanied me.. he who is my husband has no time for me.. he don't even remember if tomorrow I'm going to work or go for course. This really hurts... Bye my husband.. Chose what is good for you, continue your journey & have a safe return..
These few days he hasn't been call or going online much. And hubby did not tell me that others went for shore leave or they have already reached Dubai. I really hate this feeling. It's like someone you love lied to you again. This might be the reason why he didnt call or go online. I didn't want to doubt him... but things really show what is going on. I told him before that if he wants to go for shore leave, at least make known to me. He agreed verbally... I didn't dare to trust 100% on what he said as I'm leaving spaces for the lies to come in. So that I won't be heartbroken...
Is it necessary to lie if he goes for shore leave? The answer is NO. But hubby is always afraid that I'll leave him when he does something that I dislikes or he breaks the promise. Isn't that even worst to break a promise? If you can't do it, don't make any promises. I don't mind you going for shore leave but please at least make known to me. I don't want anything to happen to you & be the last to know it. Wedding is around the corner. If you cannot preserve like what I did, I have nothing to say.
Been waiting for his call or msn since I woke up... Till now, he didn't seems to appear. It's 5.45pm which means that it's 12.45pm over his side. He should be out for fun now.. forgetting someone is waiting beside the comp & phone always. I still remembered him saying will try to accompany me more these days as my parents went overseas. Maybe I am dreaming..
7.45pm he logged in... I asked him to call me instead cos I need to talk to him via the phone. He is clever enough to check my blog before calling me. My purpose of supporting him for this trip is to let him have a brighter future. He told me before he went off.. he said his aim is to earn & save $ for our wedding. This deployment will actually lead us into 2 ways. One is happily ever after, another is find each other unsuitable thus choose not to be together. He denied everything which made me come to a conclusion to leave a distance as for now...
My heart shattered... My tears kept rolling down my face. I didn't had any food for the whole day as I am waiting for him. I hate ppl lying to me... I'll never forget... All because of the waiting, I killed my dog... My baby... accompanied me thru out all the good & bad. The dog that is always there for me... I felt bad.. So up sad.. At least baby accompanied me.. he who is my husband has no time for me.. he don't even remember if tomorrow I'm going to work or go for course. This really hurts... Bye my husband.. Chose what is good for you, continue your journey & have a safe return..
35th & 36th day..
35th - Friday.. Same routine, went to work then went for lessons.. After lessons ended, I went home to wait for hubby. Hubby did not go online nor call me as he was busy... I waited till 3am... Really tired so went to sleep..
36th - Got disturbed by those drilling noises outside my window. Woke up at 8.35am staring at the wall. Then went back to sleep as I was too tired.. 1.45pm hubby called. I was still sleeping at that time. Hubby asked me to continue my sleep & hanged up but I woke up instead.. as I have lots of work waiting for me. I targeted to complete all my accounts, packing the inventory etc in 2days. Which means that I have to spend 2days at home to get things done. I'm so stressed with work, my business & wedding dinner preparations. But I kept telling myself that I still have time to prepare for our wedding.. just have to complete my business accounting in order for me to relax. Miss those days playing Kingdom hearts 2! I have somehow completed 1/4 of my accounts.. but still more to go.. I guess I might be able to finish it by tomorrow 12am. Haha... "When there's a will, there's a way" I believe in this..
It's 12.58am now.. Just received a private number diverted from hubby's mobile. A man said hello.. when I replied hello, he talked to a woman saying "it's a woman" then he hanged up. I know who she is... Someone that always got herself in trouble. "无事不登三宝殿" Before July 10 this year, things wasn't like this... she's actually 消失在人间. Now then she needs somethings, she approaches.. Have been tolerating such nonsense sinced hubby's deployment. But at least I faced it myself.. if hubby is here, he sure will be vexed & heartbroken, thinking what to do to deal with these problems & we sure gonna quarrel about such cases. Hubby sure is heart broken to see the real faces of everyone. It is really scary & unbelievable when you see human's 真面目. But nevertheless we got to accept the facts of life. Just live on without it & carry on our happy life. No matter what, being firm & say NO is a good way to stop all these 不属之客. Just pray that all these prank calls will stop.
36th - Got disturbed by those drilling noises outside my window. Woke up at 8.35am staring at the wall. Then went back to sleep as I was too tired.. 1.45pm hubby called. I was still sleeping at that time. Hubby asked me to continue my sleep & hanged up but I woke up instead.. as I have lots of work waiting for me. I targeted to complete all my accounts, packing the inventory etc in 2days. Which means that I have to spend 2days at home to get things done. I'm so stressed with work, my business & wedding dinner preparations. But I kept telling myself that I still have time to prepare for our wedding.. just have to complete my business accounting in order for me to relax. Miss those days playing Kingdom hearts 2! I have somehow completed 1/4 of my accounts.. but still more to go.. I guess I might be able to finish it by tomorrow 12am. Haha... "When there's a will, there's a way" I believe in this..
It's 12.58am now.. Just received a private number diverted from hubby's mobile. A man said hello.. when I replied hello, he talked to a woman saying "it's a woman" then he hanged up. I know who she is... Someone that always got herself in trouble. "无事不登三宝殿" Before July 10 this year, things wasn't like this... she's actually 消失在人间. Now then she needs somethings, she approaches.. Have been tolerating such nonsense sinced hubby's deployment. But at least I faced it myself.. if hubby is here, he sure will be vexed & heartbroken, thinking what to do to deal with these problems & we sure gonna quarrel about such cases. Hubby sure is heart broken to see the real faces of everyone. It is really scary & unbelievable when you see human's 真面目. But nevertheless we got to accept the facts of life. Just live on without it & carry on our happy life. No matter what, being firm & say NO is a good way to stop all these 不属之客. Just pray that all these prank calls will stop.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
32nd to 34th day...
32nd - Tuesday.. and I have no idea what & where I did or went. Only remember I am very busy with work & business. Slept very late as I'm ordering accessories to add to my website. Think I slept at 2am?
33rd - Wednesday.. Very busy at work. Supposed to go for lessons.. But was not feel well. So went home after work. Slept late too.. about 1am as I 'm doing my purchase requisition... Tired!!
34th - Thursday.. Again reached office late.. Had lunch with my bosses at Vivo city Tung Lok Signature. Ambience was good.. we had lots of nice food. Lobster, crab... and a desert name "Bing shan xue lian". It was something very expensive. It benefits the skin if you consumpt it. But there's season for this rare desert. Taste great..
Met Ks kor @6.15pm for "heng hua" luo mee.. he forced me to go.. Stupid kor! Anyway we had alot of food... Ta bao back for mummy too. Reached home at 8.20pm.. tired! Now doing my business accounting. Sian man... haha lots of work... Umm.. suddenly had this feeling of missing hubby.. so i browsed thru our wedding photos. Love the photo below so much! keke... I miss u baby!!
33rd - Wednesday.. Very busy at work. Supposed to go for lessons.. But was not feel well. So went home after work. Slept late too.. about 1am as I 'm doing my purchase requisition... Tired!!
34th - Thursday.. Again reached office late.. Had lunch with my bosses at Vivo city Tung Lok Signature. Ambience was good.. we had lots of nice food. Lobster, crab... and a desert name "Bing shan xue lian". It was something very expensive. It benefits the skin if you consumpt it. But there's season for this rare desert. Taste great..
Met Ks kor @6.15pm for "heng hua" luo mee.. he forced me to go.. Stupid kor! Anyway we had alot of food... Ta bao back for mummy too. Reached home at 8.20pm.. tired! Now doing my business accounting. Sian man... haha lots of work... Umm.. suddenly had this feeling of missing hubby.. so i browsed thru our wedding photos. Love the photo below so much! keke... I miss u baby!!
Btw, see that smile on my face? Blessed right? =P
Monday, October 1, 2007
31st day..
Left for work late.. Reached office at noon. Didn't sleep well whole night as I am thinking of which car to buy. Hubby told me that he is fine with either GLX or EX & leaves the decision to me. He kept telling me that he will support me.
I told Henry kor about my plans & how much the car + COE cost. Kor told me that he doesn't think that it is a good idea to buy a car now. He even call my C&C agent to find out more information... Thanks kor for your help! You are the best brother I ever had! Love you to bits! But... Kor strongly discourage me in buying a car now. Having told lots of factors, I come to a conclusion to wait & monitor the market for sometime before buying. I agreed...
Met kor at bugis, went to i-wedding to view my photos after artwork. Having lots of headache in choosing what to be done & not to be done... Damn tired... Anyway I will wait for hubby to come back to finalise as I'm really worried he doesn't like what I choose. Reached home slightly before 11pm.. Went for a bath & is now chatting with hubby.
Am really angry now as I found that hubby always agreed on somethings which in his mind he doesn't agree to but worried that he will make me upsad. This has always been the biggest problem that lies with me & him. It has been an ongoing thing eversince hubby started to have this fear of me leaving him for something else.. hmm... did I really did something to give such insecured feeling? Well, I voiced to hubby about it but he never changes. I'm really worried.. if this continues, it will sure damage our relationship/marriage. Please hubby.. I'm really damn tired of reminding you.. you mentioned that you will change your mindset. If you don't like things which I want to do, please voice up.. You and I are WE now. Which means everything involves US. I know that you loved me alot.. but if you don't tell yourself to be truthful, this relationship will not work.
Anyway I have this hopeless feeling.. My dreams shattered.. But not for long.. I'm gona get what I want soon! TO BE CONTINUED...
I told Henry kor about my plans & how much the car + COE cost. Kor told me that he doesn't think that it is a good idea to buy a car now. He even call my C&C agent to find out more information... Thanks kor for your help! You are the best brother I ever had! Love you to bits! But... Kor strongly discourage me in buying a car now. Having told lots of factors, I come to a conclusion to wait & monitor the market for sometime before buying. I agreed...
Met kor at bugis, went to i-wedding to view my photos after artwork. Having lots of headache in choosing what to be done & not to be done... Damn tired... Anyway I will wait for hubby to come back to finalise as I'm really worried he doesn't like what I choose. Reached home slightly before 11pm.. Went for a bath & is now chatting with hubby.
Am really angry now as I found that hubby always agreed on somethings which in his mind he doesn't agree to but worried that he will make me upsad. This has always been the biggest problem that lies with me & him. It has been an ongoing thing eversince hubby started to have this fear of me leaving him for something else.. hmm... did I really did something to give such insecured feeling? Well, I voiced to hubby about it but he never changes. I'm really worried.. if this continues, it will sure damage our relationship/marriage. Please hubby.. I'm really damn tired of reminding you.. you mentioned that you will change your mindset. If you don't like things which I want to do, please voice up.. You and I are WE now. Which means everything involves US. I know that you loved me alot.. but if you don't tell yourself to be truthful, this relationship will not work.
Anyway I have this hopeless feeling.. My dreams shattered.. But not for long.. I'm gona get what I want soon! TO BE CONTINUED...
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